SO, many of my needs were not met.
Where do I find my meaning? My professional career, my hobbies, and anything that meant something to me was out of the picture.
The pain was too deep to share with the world.
Isolation, desperation, hopelessness were my. everyday companions. Where can a blind person end up in life anyway? No plans to make, nothing to look forward to. Why even get out of bed?
As a mom, I was not able to watch a movie with my 10 year old daughter, or bake cookies with her for Christmas. As a women, I was not able to see myself in the mirror every morning before I leave the house. Are my clothes wrinkled? Is my hair messy?
I needed help fast!
My daily routine got simplified relatively fast preparing food was mad simple and healthy. My wardrobe remained immaculate, just the way I like it... By doing less, I started doing more!
THERE IS A PLACE WITHIN ALL OF US, THAT CAN NOT BE DENIED. IT IS THERE AND ALWAYS WILL BE !
The world suddenly became more simple, less chaotic place. Spiritual minimalism was born. I have learned to take note of any smell or sound. I started to take note of the silence. The tone of somebody's voice with a pause, sigh, or change in breathing pattern would make my conversation so much more insightful. I must say, I enjoyed talking to a person and not actually seeing the expression on their face while talking. SO liberating! So freeing! We try so hard to impress people we don't even know! The saying:"dance like nobody is watching" got a whole new meaning. I am dancing and you might be watching, but as if you're not, because I don't see you! With not so much to look forward to (what I though at the time) there was no more buying, planning, not to much left to "fix" or improve. Can't even see my body to have the opportunity to judge it. No way to decide how I feel about it ! How I feel a certain day, simply depended on how I decided to feel in the morning. No such thing as a bad hair day lol! . To my surprise, I was very happy!
THERE IS A LEGEND ABOUT A BIRD WHICH SINGS ONCE IN ITS LIFE, MORE SWEET THEN ANY OTHER CREATURE ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH. FROM THE MOMENT IT LEAVES THE NEST IT SEARCHES FOR THE THORN TREE,AND DOES NOT REST UNTIL IT HAS FOUND ONE.
THEN SINGING AMONG THE SAVAGE BRANCHES, IT IMPALES ITSELF UPONE THE LONGEST,SHARPEST SPINE, AND DYING,IT RAISES ABOVE ITS OWN AGONY TO OUTCAROL THE LARK AND THE NIGHTINGAL.
ONE SUPERLATIVE SONG,EXISTANCE THE PRICE. BUT THE WHOLE WORLD STILLS TO LISTEN,
AND GOD IN HIS HEAVEN SMILES. FOR THE BEST IS ONLY BOUGHT AT THE COST OF GREAT PAIN.....OR SO SAYS THE LEGEND
THERE IS A PLACE WITHIN ALL OF US THAT CAN NOT BE DENIED, AND SOMETIMES PAIN HELPS US REVEAL IT
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